I have been told by many that my vulnerability and honesty is amazing, raw, and inspiring. I have also heard that some people think it is too much. I use my vulnerability as a tool in recovery. If I cannot speak my full truth about what I have been through, then I am lying to myself. I am pretending it didn’t happen, or it was better than it really was, or that I didn’t have a problem. Telling the dark, deep secret stories that I have been living with for years is therapeutic.

I don’t know what my life would be like today if I still drank. Isn’t it weird that one tiny thing is actually such a huge deal? That one thing, alcohol, is just a word to some. Just something that they have once in a while for fun or to relax. For me, it was my world. And it’s insane how my world has changed without it.