Check out this blog post to read about why I picked 5/23/23 as my publish date.  Symbols and signs are all around us; it is simply up to us to see them.  If we keep a closed mind, we will never be able to see or understand what the Universe has in store for us.

“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”

~Wayne Dyer

“The past is gone. Today is full of possibilities. With each breath, I will be aware of the strength at hand.”

~Karen Casey in Each Day a New Beginning

Conscious conception is meant to be personal and authentic to you and your partner and the unique life you will bring into the world. In practicing this you can hopefully cultivate a deeper connection between the two of you, learn to trust the process, and move through some of the expectations, pressures, fears or judgments that can be present as you call your baby forth. It’s important to remember that your journey is sacred and special, no matter how long it takes, or what it takes to get there; bringing a baby into your world is truly a divine experience.”

I was a Millennial for Halloween once.   I wrapped bubble wrap around me, wore all black, and wore signs stating things like “I am Offended.”  I hate that I am considered a millennial.  It’s sad, but true.  I don’t believe that I fit into the stereotype.  Millennials don’t want to get married, we can’t afford to settle down, we eat avocado toast daily, we only do online dating, we can’t survive without our phones, we wear hipster clothes, we only care about followers and likes, we live with our parents until we are 30, we expect to be winning everything because of those dang participation trophies, and in general we are just lazy as fuck.

As we enter the holiday season, I just want to say thank you all for how you have helped me throughout the years. I know many of you have seen me at my worst, and many of you help me through each of my days now. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Your faith can move mountains and your doubt can create them. I am creating hurdles for myself...constantly battling my own inner demons that never seem to leave me. The mountains in front of me are tall and magnificent, but they are of my own making. If I had faith in myself, I could move these mountains, but right now I am stagnant.

While the bootcamp was definitely a good first step, it was not the end all be all step that would miraculously stop kids from soiling themselves. It is literally impossible to have a child learn a new habit within 3 days after they have been doing something for a couple years. The bootcamp gives them the steps they need to learn, but it does not train them completely.

Clinical Psychologist Tracy Thomas, PhD writes an article on the difference between self love and selfishness. Specifically, she writes, “loving ourselves — by taking care of ourselves first and foremost — ensures that our care for others ultimately can come from a place of inner abundance, a feeling of already being taken care of from within. As a result, we become more giving partners, family members, friends and beyond.”

I have been told by many that my vulnerability and honesty is amazing, raw, and inspiring. I have also heard that some people think it is too much. I use my vulnerability as a tool in recovery. If I cannot speak my full truth about what I have been through, then I am lying to myself. I am pretending it didn’t happen, or it was better than it really was, or that I didn’t have a problem. Telling the dark, deep secret stories that I have been living with for years is therapeutic.

Autumn is one of the four seasons of the year and is the time of year that transitions summer into winter. Along with the tree leaves changing color, the temperature grows colder, plants stop making food, animals prepare for the long months ahead, and the daylight starts growing shorter.

I think I know who I am, but I am often asking myself “Who am I really?” I don’t know all of the reasons I do the things I do. I look at my past and see how it molded me to who I am today, but sometimes I just wonder if I am yet the person I am meant to be. I decided to take some “tests” and do lots of research about my personality.

“Change the way you look at things and things we look at change.”

Give vulnerability a shot. Give discomfort its due. Because I think he or she who is the most willing to be the most uncomfortable is not only the bravest, but rises the fastest.

-Timothy Ferriss

I don’t know what my life would be like today if I still drank. Isn’t it weird that one tiny thing is actually such a huge deal? That one thing, alcohol, is just a word to some. Just something that they have once in a while for fun or to relax. For me, it was my world. And it’s insane how my world has changed without it.

It's 12:12am and I can’t sleep…

I’ve been very unmotivated to write lately. This is the first time this has happened since I started over a year ago! I’ve written my manuscript, but still have a few places I want to work on. I’ve sent out query letters to almost 30 agents. I’ve gotten my instagram somewhat engaged (not really though; it’s so hard!) I’ve written for some publications, and I’ve done a lot of podcasts. I am just feeling stuck.

I’m becoming more spiritual now that I am sober. I look at things differently and have a more intense understanding of my true self. I’m meditating and praying and listening to my Higher Power. I have spiritual guides and God and my higher self all working for me. But are all of these things different? Or are they all the same?

To all the dads out there, enjoy this day! You are amazing! Being a parent is one of the hardest things, and you keep us afloat. All of you are fantastic and should embrace this day.

We get drunk at weddings, we get drunk at graduations, we get drunk at family reunions, we get drunk at social gatherings, we get drunk at birthday parties. We get drunk at everything of which we should want to have the clearest memories. So why say people who don’t drink are no fun, when in retrospect, we are the ones who have clarity and will actually remember everything? We are the ones enjoying life without memory loss and hangovers. How much fun is a hangover?